Quickies : 005

1. Roses are blooming, young morning glory vines are busy twisting and climbing and the birds are happily visiting our feeders throughout the day. It’s this time of year (before it gets stupid hot) that makes me appreciate Spring and early Summer.

2. When the Husband asks what I want to do for the long weekend, all I can think of is working outside. Getting our hands dirty tending to our garden and plants.

3. The goal is to build an arbor over the walkway and plant/grow clematis vines on either side. They will eventually grow up and over the arbor and contrast nicely with our white roses. One thing at a time.

4. We have SO many home/garden projects we want to do. It’s difficult deciding which one to do first. Oh, to have an unlimited budget and all the time in the world to DIY it.

5. Patience is not one of my favorite virtues. I’m afraid it never will be.

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Quickies : 004

1. I may or may not have bought two new pairs of sunglasses. I have acquired a modest collection over the past year alone. Most (about 5) are less than $10. These new ones though? I broke out of my “buy cheapies because they always break/get lost” mindset and splurged. Not a whole lot but, a lot for me.

2. The whole ‘not wearing makeup every day’ is becoming my new normal. Although I can’t *not* do my brows because brows are important! I like to think they make me look presentable. Still contemplating micro-blading but, IDK if I want to take the plunge just yet.

3. My grown-out bangs are at that length where all I have to do is curl them a bit and they frame my face perfectly. AND(!) all the postpartum re-growth has FINALLY grown out long enough where they blend into the rest of my hair instead of sticking straight out. *sigh* Mom life.

4. I swear upping my vitamin D dosage has helped calm my allergies. What’s more, if I forget to take them, I notice a difference right away. Way healthier than taking allergy meds and risking it affecting my milk supply.

5. Why yes, yes I am still breastfeeding! Going on almost 3 years (in August) with L and 15 months for O. I never thought I would be able to do it after failing with C but, here I am. I’m so grateful. Nature and boobs are amazing!

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Quickies : 003

1. Knowing there’s a spiritual/crystal/witchy magic shop nearby makes me so happy. I have to restrain myself from buying everything. The whole shop is what I dream of when I think of my future “zen den”. *sigh* One day…

2. Brunch and cocktails at a hipster-ish restaurant with a good friend was much needed. Must make it a regular thing.

3. PMS means I want to eat everything in sight! I let myself indulge a little bit because life is too short.

4. Kombucha cancels it out anyway, right?

5. I love overcast, gloomy days like today. Can we just skip Summer?

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Quickies : 002

1. It’s LAUREL, y’all. All I hear is Laurel.

2. Can not wait to clock in a road trip on the Jeep. Lilith needs to break in her new tires even if it’ll mostly be on pavement. Once the kids are a little older we’ll have more time and chances to get a little dirty.

3. Considering letting our Disney passes expire in July. We don’t have the time to go during the week and weekends are busy, too. We’ve gone to the parks more than 11 times since last July to break even so, it has paid itself off.

4. I’m in the process of digging out an area in our side yard to grow sunflowers. I’m short and the shovel I’m using is longer than average (because the Husband is a giant) so I have to be mindful of not smacking my face with the handle when I step on it to dig. Fun times! I am looking forward to having pretty sunflowers towering over me come Summertime.

5. Also? Crab grass is a bitch to dig up.

6. The boys gave me another window-mounted bird feeder for Mother’s Day. They know how much I love to watch the little house finches flit, fly and squabble over who gets to eat first. So far we have three bird feeders. I like to think I’m doing my part in keeping our neighborhood birds happy and fed.

7. I need more plants in the house.

8. There are so many big and little projects to be done around the house, it’s difficult trying to decide what to tackle first. At least the front yard landscaping and exterior paint is done. Shall we move onto the backyard or guesthouse? I wish we can do both simultaneously!

9. I only want to do the guesthouse because I want to create a loft space to turn into my “zen den”. Complete with dormers, a skylight, lots of plants and witchy accouterments. *sign* One day!

10. Is it the weekend yet?

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Quickies : 001

1. Only 7 digits left to reach my second to last milestone. Giving myself until October seems reasonable and do-able. Then January for the last bit. That’s my goal and it finally (finally!) feels possible.

2. I will never be that Pinterest-mom or PTA-mom or extroverted, volunteer for everything mom – and you know what? That’s OK. I help and contribute when I can, the best way I can. That is enough.

3. As someone who loves a little coffee with their cream and sugar, limiting myself to just a dash or smidge of each is difficult. I can’t get over the bitterness. So weekends are when I indulge. Meanwhile, I get the little caffeine kick I need for the week via kombucha. Fair trade I’d say.

4. No one really warns new parents about how much these years can SUCK SO MUCH. Yes, you love them unconditionally and blah blah blah BUT, that doesn’t mean you have to like them all the time. It’s unrelenting neediness, constant whining and then worrying about this and that. Oh, let’s not forget the guilt! It’s impossibly draining and it can feel like an unending stream of suckage but, you’re not alone. Other people feel the same and have gone through the same shit and they have survived (somehow). This shit will eventually pass and it will be OK. This is what I (and the Husband) tell ourselves.

5. Signed up for a local yoga studio. The same one I went to before L was born. I found I cannot get “into it” mentally unless I’m in a different environment and there’s someone taking the lead. YT videos are great and all but, it’s not the same as going to an actual studio. Plus, it is much needed time away. Physical and mental self-care (even at nearly $90 a month) is worth it.

6. I’m not looking forward to hotter days (and nights). Savoring these May-Grey days and hoping for an extended June-Gloom. Summer and I are not friends.

7. Averaging 5 to 6 (on a good day) hours of sleep thanks to my teething 15 month old. His molars need to show up pronto!

8. Less than a month away from Summer break. Looking forward to no-rush mornings. I will need the break to wrap my head around the fact we’ll have a 3rd grader in the Fall.

9. I create so many lists, and plans, and notes and things on my phone that they have become sort of a magical manifestation tool. Use what you got, right?

10. Lunch dates with good (local) friends make me happy. Now if I can somehow magically transport myself to other cities to have lunch/dinner dates with my non-local friends? That would be even better.

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Hello, Again

I know, I know it’s been a while since I’ve had a real entry here. Life is… hectic as fuck y’all!

Let me roll the highlight reel…

1. I’m proud to say I am still (yes, STILL!) exclusively breastfeeding O. Not only that, I’m still tandem-feeding but, only for his daily nap and bedtime.

I am a milk machine!

And I am completely in awe of my body’s ability to sustain, feed and provide for two humans. Fortunately, I have had only one incident of mastitis (that shit ain’t fun y’all). I’m one of the lucky ones.

2. I traded in (with the Husband’s help, natch) my little Scion xB for a 2014 Jeep Wrangler Unlimited Sport! I’ve wanted a Jeep since I was a teenager. I also wanted a “project”. We decided to only look at certified pre-owned models and scored one in pristine condition (with low miles!) in the limited edition color “Amp’d Anvil”.

As soon as I saw her on the lot, I knew there was no going back to my little xB. Test driving her sealed the deal for me. I was apprehensive about going from my smaller cars (New Beetle, tC and xB) to a Jeep but, the learning curve wasn’t bad at all. It’s nice to be higher up.

I named my new Jeep, LILITH (yes, after the dark goddess) and I cannot love her more. I (well, WE) added a few (mostly cosmetic but, also necessary!) modifications since I got it in December. I have a running list of accessories I want to get – I know, like, who am I? lol

Next year though, she’ll get new wheels and tires because she needs to be lifted and have 35s (maaaybe 37s), ha.

Also? I cannot wait to take the top(s) off this Summer!

2. I celebrated my 39th birthday on 1/25 and I can’t lie, I’m freaking out a little bit about this being the last year in my 30s. I’m trying not to feel like I need to do EVERYTHING before I’m “too old”. I’m sure that makes absolutely no sense to anyone but me.

3. The Husband, meanwhile, celebrated his 40th the other day. He has never been the type to draw attention to himself or party. I practically had to make him go out for drinks with his friends.

As a gift to himself he’s currently hunting for a new vehicle. He has wanted a truck for years and decided now is the time to get one. He deserves it so.

4. My newly shaded sleeve is healing nicely from my second session. My artist wasn’t able to finish (due to me only being able to carve out 3 hours at a time) BUT I’m not too bummed about it as it’s only a small portion.

I’ll head back next month to finish it up AND get additional tattoos. I have quite a few little designs I want in various places.

5. I’m starting to write (and re-work my old stuff) again and it feels good. My writing (poetry and prose) tends to leans toward the “erotic” and I’ve always felt shy/fearful about posting it online. I don’t want to offend or trigger but, I also feel the need to share so IDK.

6. With the little free time I have I’m trying to draw more. I “write” on my phone using the Notes app so it’s easy to jot things down as they come to me but, hauling out my gigantic sketchbook and pens is not as quick and easy. I try to draw while the toddlers take their afternoon naps but, that isn’t always a guaranteed. In any case I draw when I can and I’m thankful for the time I do get.

7. O’s first birthday is on the 16th and y’all, I’m still in shock we have THREE kids. If you asked me at 25 if I wanted kids, I would have said NOPE. Now here we are. I would have never thought we’d have one kid let alone three! Funny how things work out.

Also? We’re exhausted!

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