1. Only 7 digits left to reach my second to last milestone. Giving myself until October seems reasonable and do-able. Then January for the last bit. That’s my goal and it finally (finally!) feels possible.
2. I will never be that Pinterest-mom or PTA-mom or extroverted, volunteer for everything mom – and you know what? That’s OK. I help and contribute when I can, the best way I can. That is enough.
3. As someone who loves a little coffee with their cream and sugar, limiting myself to just a dash or smidge of each is difficult. I can’t get over the bitterness. So weekends are when I indulge. Meanwhile, I get the little caffeine kick I need for the week via kombucha. Fair trade I’d say.
4. No one really warns new parents about how much these years can SUCK SO MUCH. Yes, you love them unconditionally and blah blah blah BUT, that doesn’t mean you have to like them all the time. It’s unrelenting neediness, constant whining and then worrying about this and that. Oh, let’s not forget the guilt! It’s impossibly draining and it can feel like an unending stream of suckage but, you’re not alone. Other people feel the same and have gone through the same shit and they have survived (somehow). This shit will eventually pass and it will be OK. This is what I (and the Husband) tell ourselves.
5. Signed up for a local yoga studio. The same one I went to before L was born. I found I cannot get “into it” mentally unless I’m in a different environment and there’s someone taking the lead. YT videos are great and all but, it’s not the same as going to an actual studio. Plus, it is much needed time away. Physical and mental self-care (even at nearly $90 a month) is worth it.
6. I’m not looking forward to hotter days (and nights). Savoring these May-Grey days and hoping for an extended June-Gloom. Summer and I are not friends.
7. Averaging 5 to 6 (on a good day) hours of sleep thanks to my teething 15 month old. His molars need to show up pronto!
8. Less than a month away from Summer break. Looking forward to no-rush mornings. I will need the break to wrap my head around the fact we’ll have a 3rd grader in the Fall.
9. I create so many lists, and plans, and notes and things on my phone that they have become sort of a magical manifestation tool. Use what you got, right?
10. Lunch dates with good (local) friends make me happy. Now if I can somehow magically transport myself to other cities to have lunch/dinner dates with my non-local friends? That would be even better.